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Be the change you wish to see - Mahatma Gandhi

I'm sure everyone would have heard of this proverb. Its been in use from a long time. The thing is, I never actually understood the USE of Proverbs. Of course, they are all exceptionally true, but I've not seen a single person who has actually implemented it in their life. I can go around all day, stating Proverbs after Proverbs, but what's the use? Neither I, nor will the one who actually listens to me will implement it.

I have heard of many proverbs, but this one always confused me a lot. BE THE CHANGE YOU WISH TO SEE. I wish to see many CHANGES, but I can't BE all that change. Am I confusing you? Good then. I'm doing my job right.

Thanks to Indi And Stayfree people, as they have now given us a chance to speak out what we would actually like to CHANGE in this world. As soon as I saw the topic, I smiled and said, "This is the easiest one of all", Now I'm wondering if that was true. Cause it really is not so easy. There is so much to be changed. Finally, after a lot of thought I decided when I had to write about. So well, no more suspense. Lets head right to the topic.

Change! What would I like to Change? I want to eradicate Corruption.

Aah! Corruption. You can find corruption going on, on every corner of the street. So, when thinking about Corruption, the Proverb came back to my mind again. For once it made some sense. First I have to Change myself, in order to change the world. Ok, So done. I'm Corrupt Free. Hahaha! That's the funniest thing I've ever heard in my life. Me and corrupt free? Oh please. I may not be extremely corrupt but I'm corrupt in my own way. How you ask?

Lets take lie for instance. I'm not Satya Harishchandra's great-great-great-grand daughter or something so yeah, I lie. Actually I have lied about a lot of things. Being in school, I prefer to eat in canteen once in a week. I would have taken money from mom and would have gone, but due to some reasons I wouldn't have eaten. You know teenagers right. Even a tiny thing upsets us. So yeah, I starve the whole afternoon, and as soon as I go home, my mom comes rushing to me, and asks, "Poo you ate right? Did it fill your stomach? Rice is ready. I'll get it for you?". I look at her, my stomach would be rumbling and tumbling in hunger but I can't hurt her. If I tell her that I hadn't eaten she will feel sad and then she'll ask me what had happened. And of course I wouldn't be in mood to talk nor to eat. So I just say, "I ate mom. I'm full. No thanks", and give her a tight hug. At that moment, it feels like the right thing to be done, but then its not right. I know it will hurt my mom, but that doesn't give me the rights to lie right? So, there it goes, Corruption #1.

Lets take another instance. Bribing! Well, I haven't exactly given bribe till now, but the future doesn't exactly go as we wish right? Being in school and preparing myself for college this year, I feel scared. What if I get less marks? What if I don't get seat in a good institution? What if no college accept me? Then it flashed, Donation. Oh! My parents will have to pay so much money for my mistake. Wait a minute! What? Donation? Giving money to useless people to push your file forward? Any idea how much money colleges and schools make every year? Well, Neither do I. Anyways its not about them. They don't exactly ask everyone to give donation. If the college is good and your marks isn't then please make sure your money is good. The funny thing is, I am speaking against donation, but if I don't get a seat in good college, then that's exactly what I'll be doing. I'll be on the tip of my toes, to pay them so that I could get in. This is Corruption #2 right?

One more instance. Just imagine, your college is over and you are stepping into the corporate world now. What would you do if you don't get a job? Or imagine that you are struck in a company who wouldn't let you leave? What to do then? I know what parents say - "Call that chairman or minister. He/She will get it done. Without influence nothing works these days". Influence! Begging some corrupt people to get you into or to get you out of a job. Waah! Its just like Begging from a beggar. Think I'm scolding a lot? Well, what about it? Its not like I won't allow my parents to say so or not do it. So, this is corruption number WHAT? I couldn't keep track of it.

I can go on all day, but for now, these are the only things on my mind. And you know what? I feel no wrong in stating this. Because I know I won't feel wrong while doing it. 

The funniest thing is, everyday people shout that Government is corrupt and that all the officials are corrupt. I just have one simple question for you all. Who made them corrupt? Who was the one who showed them money for everything? Even to get a simple task done? You call them Corrupt, but what about you yourself? You aren't corrupt? You've never Lied? Cheated? Paid extra money to get a job done? Burst out a secret? Gotten influence? Please! Find me one such person and I'm ready to do anything they ask me to do.

I'm saying it so confidently cause I know very well that there isn't such a person. Everyone is corrupt in their own. They just don't accept it. I don't know what's there to hide though! Its not like people wouldn't know about it. A saying goes in kannada, "Bekku kannu muchkondu haalu kudidre lokakke gottagallava?" which means Just because a cat is drinking milk with Its eyes closed, it doesn't mean that the world doesn't know about it.

So, all I'm saying is, I myself have so many defects, in this case, its not right for me to say that I'll change the world. First I have to get rid off my defects and then only can I change the world. Moreover,One should always know that, when we Point our finger at someone else, three other fingers are still pointing to ourselves. As soon as Stayfree people put up this contest, it has been overflowing with posts. Everyone wants to CHANGE things around them, but no one is ready to change themselves. No one is ready to accepts that they have defects as well. When this is the case, how can one change the world?

A small story, Once a KING announced that there will be a PARTY in his kingdom and ordered every person to bring a bottle of wine. There was a poor farmer in that kingdom and he told his wife, "We can't afford a bottle of wine. So we'll just take a bottle of water. When it is mixed with all the other bottles, people won't notice the difference". In the same way everyone planned, even the rich ones. Finally, the whole Barrel was filled with WATER instead of Wine. In the same way, everyone is ready to bring WATER, but none, not One is ready to bring Wine.

This is the state of our people and our constitution. In this moment, shouting I WANT CHANGE is useless. As I conclude my elongated post, Once again I wonder, What does that Proverb actually mean? I guess I'll never know.

Does anyone here fear HUMANS like I do?

I just don't want to trust anyone anymore.

I believed that everyone deserved to be LOVED and TRUSTED.

I was wrong once again.

I'm tired of loving everyone and getting hurt.

No more 1000th Second chance.

No more fights, no more hugs.

I'm tired of being the one to cry over everything.

I don't need friends.

I don't want to get Jealous when they befriend someone else.

I don't want to be possessive.

I don't want to be anyone's friend.

Leave Me Alone

PLEASE

LEAVE ME ALONE.

1.My Dad

2. My Brother Vicky

Kamal is my Brother from Another Mother, but no one who have met us till now has ever agreed to it. Everyone thinks we are siblings itself, and well we kind of are like that. Kamal is just like Vicky to me, the only difference is I can share anything I can with this idiot. He is only 2 years older than me and understands me extremely well. So yeah, if you want to know anything about me you know whom to go to. He probably knows more about me than I do. He is the only person in this world, who can make me LAUGH with tears in my eyes. 

Love you Kamal bhai. 

4. My Bhai Jaan

Partha, aka my bhai jaan is also my Brother from another mother. He is this sweet and cute guy who always takes care of you and guides you. Me, him and Kamal form the 3 idiots gang. We are especially good at teasing others and fighting with each other. My bhai jaan is an exceptional guy. He is extremely good at heart and always caring about others. His way and his method always pleases me. Moreover, he loves animals and has made his home a LIVING ZOO. His rabbits are probably the cutest one on this planet. He takes care of them as if they are his own kids. He will be an awesome parent. The best thing about him is, He always tells me, "Poo, you come over to my place, I will keep you in a showcase, will feed you, will look after you and take care of you. Will do whatever you want, just come na". Hehe! Sweetheart my bhai jaan is. Loves me a lot.

I love you too bhai jaan. More than you love me.

5. My Love Ian

Ok, If I start explaining, It will never end. My biggest crush till now is Ian. He is probably the hottest guy on earth and I just love him.

6. My Bestie Krish

Aah! What can I say about Krishna? He is the first friend I've ever had in Boys and he is my bestest friend ever. Everyone calls us Tom and Jerry. Why you ask? Because 24*7 we keep fighting, but still we can't be without each other. He is a sweet guy and extremely good, Just like me(heheh) hence we REPEL each other. You know, Like Poles repel.. Magnet theory?? Anyway, we fight so much that one would think that if we come in front of each other we will pull each other hairs out, but the fact is that, if we do go in front of each other, we both will sit down and start talking. Hehe! Crazy we are. But still, he is the only person I can talk anything with and for him also its the same.

Hate you Tommy boy. You know what I mean.

7. My Friend Vivek

Vivek is my second best friend. Aka my Choco. He is this extremely sweet guy who loves teasing others and pampering his loved ones. He is one guy, I can talk to all day and not get bored. He always makes me smile with his stupid comments and silly words. I just love how when we are together, I always have great moments. Time speeds by whenever you are here. 

You are extremely sweet Choco. Always be like that.

8. My Jeeju Vik

Vikranth aka VIK aka Every Girl's dream boy, is my dearest Jeeju. He is the Choco Boy for so many people. This guy, I tell you, is handsome and sweet and extremely nice. Almost every girl is behind him. Thats why I decided that he'll be my Jeeju and whomever "HE LIKES" will be my sister. My jeeju is really sweet you see, even though so many girls are behind him he Loves only me. I'm his jaanu saali. His little kid. He loves me a lot and takes care of me as if I'm his kid. He looks after me like a Father, takes care of me like a mother, fights with me like a brother, laughs with me like a friend and loves me more than anyone else.

I love you a lot jeeju. You are a very nice person. 

9. My Friend Abhi

Abhi is my sweet friend. He and me love playing Counter Strike together. Hehe! We keep fighting a lot and when I say I don't want to talk to me, he starts a server and comes to me saying, Wanna Play? And I'm like YEAH PLEASE! Hehe. Its awesome to play with him. At first I was really bad, then he trained me up. Just love playing with him. He and me love shooting each other. Hehehe!

10. My Role Model APJ

Last but NEVER the least, APJ ABDUL KALAM. The man whom I love and adore the most. More than that, I respect him more than anyone else. He is my role model. His books inspired me a lot and brought a change to my life. Even though he is so famous, he is extremely modest and loves to be with kids. Its my dream to meet him one day and listen to his speech.

SALUTES.

Well, those are the 10 men in my life. Its an extremely happy thing for me to say that I've been blessed with extremely nice and sweet and inspiring men around me who guides me, helps me and protects me.

Love you all.

A Tear dropped down  her eyes,

As she went into her room.

"When will all the pain end?",She thought,

"When is the day of Doom?"

Her heart ached and eyes cried,

But no one was there to care.

She took a knife and cut herself,

How much does she dare?

The blood spilled all across the floor,

Just the way her tears flew.

She sat there and waited,

For someone to get a clue.

But no one came,

It was just her and her pain.

She walked to her window, And

out there was heavy rain.

She went out and got drenched,

And she found her pain shared.

The nature was crying with her,

Showing that the Gods cared.

She felt much better,

As soon as she found it out, 

That there was always someone to care,

So, no reason to cry about.

She wiped her tears,

And looked up at the sky.

She smiled and said,

"I'll never know Why".

Everything became fine,

As the scars began to heal.

She won't cut again, she promised,

Keeping it was a big deal.

There are so many people in this world who CUT themselves as they are not able to face the pain that they face. Isn't this cruel? Not the PAIN. The thing that they Hurt themselves? 

First thing is that, they are not the only ones who Suffer in life.Every single person would have faced Difficulties in life. Hiding yourself from it and cutting yourself would be cowardly. When so many people have the guts to face it, why cant they?

I have one question to those who Cut themselves. You Cut yourself. Will it Erase all your troubles? 

It doesn't right? Its just a way for you to hurt yourself more. 

I had cut myself once. I regret that I ever Did it, but I did learn a lesson from it.

What I learned, you ask?

Hmm! I Learned that LIFE is much more than pain and stuff. Once you pass through those moments, there is so much out there which can make you happy. If I have to know the meaning of HAPPY then I have go through PAIN right? Without that I won't be able to respect the Happy Moments.

Next thing was that, MY PARENTS didn't Slog all day at work, and took so much trouble to Bring me up just so that I could go and Kill myself. They have gone through double the trouble to Make Me who I am now. When they could go through so much, then Can't I go through a little bit of trouble? Its nature of Life right?

Third was that, LIFE is a precious thing. We could have been anything. A Dog, A Cat, Even a COCKROACH, but NO, we were given the LIFE of HUMANS, The most intelligent beings on earth.We have been gifted with this LIFE so that we can live through it and achieve something. And not to run away from every little things.

When, there are so many GOOD THINGS in LIFE, then why Hurt yourself for something BAD that has happened? You may have many troubles, but once you FACE them you'll know that there is so much to enjoy. 

Its a BIG request from my side to all those who cut yourselves, PLEASE DONT DO IT. Your life is really precious. And there are many people in this world who would give ANYTHING to be in your position today. Life is not as bad as it looks. So please, Be Brave and Don't hurt yourselves.

BUTTERFLY EFFECT is a really good way to get over this CUTTING mania. Please take a look it and try to implement it in your life. 

Thank you.